Wow, so its been over a month since I've updated.

I've given up study hall and now I go to John's culinary class.  Its so much fun in there, i think Carlos is like the funniest kid ever and Annette and Michelle are really nice to me.  Chef Merlino is awesome!!! I'm going to take Culinary basics with him next year hopefully.  Ummm Alex and I are talking again..i think the last time i posted i said we weren't or something..but we've been fine for a while.  Even though i barely see Sparkles we're still close... i get a phone call every once and a while. Um me and Nykki are starting to get really close... she's so much fun to be around... hopefully this summer me her john alex sparkles marshall and anyone else who wants to come can hang out...it would be awesome.  Uhmmm right now my biggest issue in life is gettin' better cuz i'm pretty damn sick. 

Besides that though, does anyone know how to get a stubborn parent to let their kid go to senior prom?  Help me out on that one!!!

I didn't get a direct no... so she's gonna think about it and then ask dad... argh it kills me.

I can't write much more cuz i'm gonna pass out... i hate being sick.

will write more later?

Sammie

Yea, its been a while since I updated...

Me and Alex broke up... i dunno the past few weeks in school have been hell because of my what everyone calls "immaturity."  Whatever. I'll just be staying single forever.... 

Now cuz of the new semmester i barely see Kathleen or Sparkles... =[ I don't see Kate much either but she hates me so i guess thats okay...BUT! I get to see Marshall every B-day in study hall with my darlin' Katie Hannah and Alex drifts in and out.  I see John tho pretty much after every class... Lunch is pretty sweet too cuz its:
John, Me, Katie, Marshall, Kat, Kimmy, Shalloo, Alex, and some girl i don't know, and Nykki, Jason Briana, and it just goes on and on...its pretty fly.

Me and John are pretty much inseparable..like peanut butter and jelly he says.  He's pretty much my best friend ever... well guy friend at least cuz he's the only one that kinda understands me at this point.

So supposedly Sammie's finally gone off the deep end... and everyone who cares pretty much knows how i've been lately..idunno its confusing me and upsetting me.

anyways i'll post more later...    not in the mood right nwo.

I'm such a Renthead... <333

You might be a Renthead if . . .
. . . in the winter you go outdoors, think "cold, cold" and immediately sing "Would you light my candle."
. . . you have seen multiple casts of Rent.
. . . you've stolen a Rent poster from anywhere.
. . . you know all the words to La Vie Boheme.
. . . your friends say you're "addicted" or "obsessed".
. . . you've dreamed of playing a part in Rent (even if you can't sing or act). .
. . . you had to replace your Rent CD because it was worn from being played non-stop.
. . . you learn to play Musetta's Waltz on the guitar.
. . . you can recite/sing the lines along with your favorite character.
. . . when somebody asks "what's the time?" you feel compelled to sing out "well it's gotta be close to midnight!"
. . . when somebody asks "how old are you?" I say "I'm 19, but I'm old for my age!"
. . . everytime you see the Taco Bell commercial for Santa Fe Gorditas, all you can think is "Let's open up a restaurant. . . " well, you know where. . .
. . . everytime someone says "what'd you forget" you start singing "Light my candle".
. . . when performing math, you wonder if this equation will equal 525,600.
. . . you actually spend time CALCULATING a year in different units.
. . . you can't sleep at night because the entire musical won't stop playing in your head.
. . . you have EVER considered having your answering machine say "speeeeeeeeaaaaaaaak. . . " or it actually DOES say "speeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaakkkkk."
. . . you can't hear the phrase "Santa Fe" without thinking, "you know, tumbleweeds, prairie dogs..."
. . . you walk to the beat of Rent songs.
. . . you feel like typing A-N-G-E-L at any ATM machine you can find.
. . . you have managed to work out to Rent.
. . . you know the entire LVB dance and are ready to perform it for everyone wherever you can find a table. And you have done it at school
. . . whenever someone stirs iced tea, you start performing the lawn chair-handcuff dance.
. . . last time you got evicted 'cuz everytime it was time to pay rent, you marched up to your landlord singing 'we're not gonna paaaaay'.
. . . every time someone asks "what'd you forget?", you reply "got a light?"
. . . every time your watch beeps...you stop and say..."AZT break"
. . . every time you see Wizard of Oz, you say 'You know, Dorothy and Toto only went over the rainbow to blow off Auntie Em...'
. . . you find yourself writing "La Vie Boheme!" and other quotes from RENT all over your Algebra folder.
. . . you've actually auditioned for the show
. . . you and your boyfriend act out "light my candle" or "I should tell you" or "another day"

. . . AIDS affects you deeply, but you always break out in song...
. . . you have "No day but today" written everywhere
. . . you want Mimi's clothes even though they are really slutty
. . . you scream "Wine and Beer" everytime asks you what you're having
. . . you named your dog Akita "Evita"
. . . whenever someone says "Where is he/she?" you always say "Gettin' dizzy!"
. . . your boyfriend/girlfriend calls you "pookie" and you immediately assume he/she is cheating on you.
. . . you are disappointed if (at Christmas) the Salvation army Santa Claus (or any other Santa Claus) aren't wearing zebra printed tights.
. . . you used I'll cover you as your wedding song
. . . you've listened to nothing but the rent cd for over two years
. . . you spend hours with your sister singing the parts of Roger and Mimi.
. . . you have ever sung out tonight at the top of your lungs in a public place, poledancing as you do so.
. . . you've managed to perform perfectly Angel's drumstick solo in today 4 u or you are trying really hard to perfect it.
. . . you listen to the soundtrack everytime your on the phone and at weird times just blurt out the lines.
. . . you watch yourself in the mirror while you act out both parts to "Light My Candle" simultaneously. .
. . . when someone asks "who died?" you automatically respond with "our Akita...Evita"
. . . you want to move to NYC just so you can go see RENT everyday
. . . you used a part of la vie boheme in your graduation speech. .
. . . you hear someone say, "Got a light?" You immediately respond," I know you...you're...you're shivering!"
. . . you randomly ask people if they paid last years rent you ask them if they're going to pay this years or next years rent
. . . your AOL profile is filled with quotes from rent
. . you're going to NYU just so you can see Rent all the time
. . . when your friend asks you how much money it costs to get into a school dance, you shout out, "We don't need any money-I always get in for free!! you can get in too- if you get in with me!!!!!"
. . .everytime your parents yell at you/ground you, your compelled to scream out: "Not to mention of course...hating dear old mom and daaaadddd!"
. . . you hooked at least one of your friends on RENT
. . . you want your tombstone to read 'No Day But Today'
. . . you did a sex ed report on AIDS and AZT and played RENT during your class presentation
. . . your idea of a pick up line is: 'Would you light my candle?'
. . . you are reminded of Roger and MIMI when ever you drip candle wax on yourself
. . . while trying to hid a secret you say "I should tell you I should tell you". then don't say anything else
. . . on your history test you defined anarchy as "revolution, justice screaming for solutions, forcing changes, risk and danger, making noise and making pleas!"
. . . when someone asks 'what's that?' you reply 'it's a candy bar wrapper' .
. . . you sit up all night looking for the Cat Scratch Club
. . . whenever you see a microphone you say TEST 1 2 3 into it.
. . . you work in a pub that makes their own beers and you want to tell your customers they're "hand crafted beers made in local breweries"
. . . you learn to tango
. . . every time someone breaks up with you think "I'd be happy to die for a taste of what angel had...."
. . . you failed a test because you wrote "Wine and beer!" on it.
. . . when asked your name, your respond "they call me... they call me... Mimi."
. . . when someone mentions "Spike Lee" you reply with "Bahumbug!" .
. . . you are tempted to rewire virtual reality equipment to self destruct and broadcast the words "actual reality, act up, fight AIDS!".
. . . when you are waiting in line, your best friend comes up to you and says "Honey, Women in rubber will always be flirting with me"
. . . you feel guilty when you forget some of the lyrics.
. . . you can sing along to the soundtrack, playing every character, while typing or doing homework
. . . every assignment that you do in school has to do with Rent (like speeches or essays)
. . . when you have to memorize something for a class you set it to the tune of the "bisexuals, trisexuals" part of Le Vie Boheme to remember them.
. . . you can sing any of the musical from any given point
. . . you used Rent quotes in your Grad comments in your Gr.12 yearbook
. . . you have straight blond hair, blue eyes and fair skin, and you are willing and even eager to dye and perm your hair, get brown contacts and spend hours, even days in a tanning booth just so you can play Mimi
. . . you flirt with other people using lines from Rent such as "You're sweet, wanna hit the street?"
. . . everytime you're taking the subway downtown and after you've passed the '14th Street' stop you turn to the person next to you and say 'they say I have the best ass below 14th street, is it true?'
. . . your chemistry and math class think you're insane because you knew how many minutes are in a year.
. . . you and your friends can break out into any song from Rent whenever you want.
. . . you have given up listening to the radio because you want to listen to rent
. . . when you fail to recognize an acquaintance you say " I didn't recognize you without the handcuffs" ...
. . . when someone says, "You look familiar" you reply, "Like your dead girlfriend?"
. . . the heat in your house dies so you walk around with a candle like Mimi and singing to random people in your house
. . . you have a bigger heart than you ever thought possible, and LOVE it that way.

i love RENT so much...

OMG... Last night, me, Alex, Katie and my friend JP went bowling!!! AND I GOT HURT! Who does that? I hit myself in the leg with the ball really hard and it FLEW into the air and got like 30 seconds of air...it was above my head!!!  I have a huge bruise and my leg is all swollen... really funny...

Katie and I had a blast last night..she stayed over and we made christmas cookies and ate them all between last night and this morning.  We didn't go to bed until like 1:30 cuz we had to talk and talk and talk.

Now we're gonna marry Keith Urban..or at least fight over him till one of us dies.  We decided we're gonna straighten TJ's hair and highlight it to make him look like Keith Urban... hehe Katie would be REALLLLY happy then. I won't torture alex and do that to him tho =)

Wow...once again I'm neglecting to update.

I've pretty much been falling apart every day now since things with my parents are getting harder and harder.  Pretty much every day with that breaking down i get-
Alex upset, John angry or annoyed, Kathleen trying to help, Marshall just being around and having to listen to it and getting confused, and John John being the best brother ever even if he has no idea whats going on. 

Oh well though today was a great day!  Pictures came in and Nate didn't take my seat at lunch. I really want to kill that boy. 

Anyways last weekend was awesome!  John, Kimmy, and Alex came over and we watched the breakfast club.  It was awesome!  Who knew Skittles could be so much fun? I hope Kimmy gets her pictures developed soon because there is an awesome picture of all of us and John lookin' like a Koosh ball! Hehe I put like 20 elastics in his hair, I felt bad when me and Kimmy took them out cuz i bet it hurt. 
The night was good until my dad hit the roof cuz he spied and saw me and alex making out. Hence this is where I am this week with both my parents wishing i was dead.

Aha on a brighter note, me and Sparkles planned a redneck wedding, complete with all the coolest things.  Sooo i told John John bout it and he decided, "Hey! Let's get married!" So yes, even though its incest me and John are "married," imaginary rings and all.  It was the funniest thing ever!

Oh well... ridings going okay too.. I've been riding Collins, this huge bay who i adore, and Chip is going to Tufts sunday i think.

Gotta go...will spill my feelings out later.